Secrets And Truths : Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. Again. hahaha

yeap, my 2nd bro graduated!

a lot of unexpected things happened..

we all thought it will be a wonderful family trip but we were wrong.. he stuck with his gf's family all the time n we felt like as if coming here for no purpose since the main person is not with us

plus my sis was back so its a very rare family reunion n outing that ive been waited for years.

but.. aih i was so mad at her, n sometimes my bro too.

at first night of staying i slept alone in my room cuz my sis hasnt arrive. thank goodness ntg happened but sui chua kept on sending me spooky msges that my heart will jump out! d other night here came my elder bro n sis with their experiences==

and yea. i dreamed of jiazhen with amanda TT

firstly when we embark d airplane in kk, i was quite surprise with my elder bro's reaction cuz he didnt reply me but walked in hurry. the truth was something related to my 2nd bro's irresponsibility about car renting. he took his own car n brought his gf family went away from airport without taking care of my elder bro's car which was our car

2nd is he asked my elder bro to do so many things for him, as if hes the one who graduates.

For instance, he threw all the planning to my elder bro to think of n settle those photos and things n hotel stuffs la, my elder bro was mad again cuz he gave him many things to do while himself sticking with that family like they r his actual family..

which made me feel sad too..

3rd was on the first day we juz arrived in kk we planned to go eat without d other family to avoid awkwardness. u all know how it feels like when ur eating with strangers right? have to be polite in actions n words.. zz. we purposely give in not to go to the better restaurant cuz they was there d so we went to the other one opposite of that restaurant. who knows, the came to us when we sat down. that awkwardness n pretentious actions were suck. plus they ordered normal food that can eat at anywhere. and. my dad paid for all. this wasnt really a problem la but wat i hated was to eat with their family. i was like come on, we havent even met my elder bro's fiancee's family, why is this happening?

next, she made my 2nd bro to carry her luggage n u know how heavy was hers? 8kg+. n my bro's one 7kg+. how can my bro take such heavy things? come on la have a lil bit of common sense n consideration can ah? she knows herself cant carry such heavy bag then dun bring so lot of stuffs la since she expect my bro to carry for her. my bro went n complain to me said his shoulders r still pain after 1 day, carrying each bag each side of his shoulder and walked a long long way to reach bus station or somewhat and she was just holding 2 bottles of water walking with him. how can she do this to her bf? no brain gah?

5th, she has licence but doesnt dare or know how to drive. come on, girl shouldnt be so dependent la. what also wants my bro to do for her. cause him cant be with us n made elder bro so tired driving n planning all alone. if she knows to rmb way to diff places then also slightly better la. she doesnt even know how to go places in sabah even though she stayed there for 4 yrs. come on.

6th, two of them made all of us waited for them in car for 1 hr+ after his convo. her convo was d day after him.

at first we were waiting for him to go to eat then fetch my sis at airport. we understand that he wants to take pic after his convo then we waited patiently lo. after half an hour we all r so hungry d plus its getting late. so i gave him a call. he said he was on the way. he still havent came. then i called him again n he still said he was coming then ok lo wait for him lo. then wait til an hour d he still cant reach our car meh?! i gave him a call again. after few mins he came. with his gf. i was seriously mad but i hold on. i can see my bro also got mad d n kept quiet cuz he planned to have a good dinner with him finally without d other family. but she appeared with her sis together with her and forced into the car with the back seat seated 5 ppl. bravo.

then she said " wah we took a lot of pictures er". i was almost wanna kill her. sister, we waited for so long of course u two can take so lot of pics as u said la. who couldnt woh? she still dare to say like this really challenged my patience. ive never feel so mad of someone like this except ken. i can really break few pens n woods if i have it. my patience has a limit ok? wasted my credit so much plus they made our parents in hunger leh cant they be more considerate? i seriously gonna scold her if my parents werent there. i dare. elder than me doesnt mean that shes always right and for this kind of person she really needs some lessons to wake her up. cant she leave our family alone?

7th, she didnt even say hi to my sis. my sis is a lot elder than her n she didnt even say hi? even my sis told me she feels like shes not respecting her.

both of me n my sis r geminian so our thought r quite alike. both of us said once our impression on her dropped, shes so dead. we wont have good feelings on her anymore n not syok her anymore. we all wonder how can my bro stand her huh? even my dad said he will be suffering if shes someone like this.

she took psychology wor. family type somemore. cant she understand how we feel? still say almost get first class wor. sure shes juz memorizing everything without understanding it la. what a joke. mou yuk psychology subject==

cant believe my sis n i had same thought of naming her baby which are keith or ian. cant believe lol. n our background stories are almost the same but hers one was worse.. feel so bad for her last time..=( and i got to know why she go outstation so young to work..

but im so glad that she told me that her baby's gonna be very handsome n good to her.

and her husband seems quite good to her too. last time my impression on him wasnt so good but im kinda relieve after hearing wat she told me bout him=)

we had western food at upperstar, minced pork mee, coconut pudding, seafood with lobster fish mantis prawn and... forgot XD

i went back to ipoh alone.. take airplane, bus back to ipoh without my parents..

thx to weng went all way long to fetch me from bus station at jelapang so late at night. but i feel very guilty on him coz he had exam d other day like me n he had misunderstanding with god.. aih.. im so sorry.. it was my fault causing u have such trouble now..

didnt bring the camera back.. its with my 2nd bro in kl now.. cant post any of them..

and.. i said something horrible to elmy.. i asked him not to find me always cuz i feel guity on her but actually my main reason of it is i feel suffering everytime he called me or find me. its like keep on giving myself hope.. even though he treats me as his bestfren but its different for me although i wish hes not.

but somehow i can tell that hes quite sad n disappointed when i said this to him.. i feel so sad too.. but i dunno how to do to cheer ourselves up.. he didnt reply me after that...

whenever i see him.. i will think.. how can he be that perfect..? and why cant he.. be..