Insomnia..TT

yerrr...!!!

canot fall asleep la..too many things to think!!

im worry about spm..coz i dun wanna study for form6..

i think at least i will lose 3 As which is add maths physics n sejarah..im dead..TT

its juz AT LEAST!!!

aih~mayb that makes me insomnia..i hate it!!!

n i hate the 1 who wake me up by my home phone reli >

coz today once again id been awakened by my aunty..==

yerrr almost wanna scold her haha nola not so jahat me hehe

if my maths is good then i wont hav so much stress..coz my dad wants my maths to b soooooooooo gooooooooood..n he always blame my mum that send me to malay school last time..coz my dad wan me to study in sam chai..

n he said that sam chai experts in maths..==

no such thing ok?then dun let me c got sam chai students so weak in maths

i reli wil hav a fight wif him if he brings this up again..come la who scare who..

im not trying to b aggressive but juz im juz defending my rites n im the 1 who studying not him..how come he know all that?

my bros all aso maths good good de..actually my sis aso not bad but mayb dunno wat happen la..

everyone is different dei..try to b understanding man..

is this a prejudice towards the one who came from malay school?

dear..i am happy to study there la..

wat i can do now..?

only can receive pressure from u lo..no persuading n no support from u..

actually im so reli feel envy to those their mum n dad that r fully support them n giv in trusts n believes to their daughter n son u know..

i always thinking why i canot b juz like them..?full of freedom n no stress..

im aso a teen wat..am i different..?

n aso those who always travel wif their family..

am i not qualified to enjoy those life..?

when i said i never go genting or penang they will b so surprised..

so awkward rite?

an alien?

dun let me read ur mind..this feeling is sucks..

why u must care so much bout me??

i know how to think la..i know how if i fail to get good results for my future..

u tot that i like to b like this?i want this all?

im very agree to the dream specialist that id asked half a year ago..

she/he said that my family doesnt understands me..

coz i keep on repeating dreaming the same terrifying dream..at least 4-5 times..

i dreamt that my family bcame zombies or dunno wat keep on chasing me n me keep on running n running trying to seek for help

always aso dream that my home is so scary like that..n i canot run out of my garden..dunno y..yer

okla end here

feel better

hehe sorry if i said wrong anything..peace >