1 month anniversary..=)

today is our 1 month anniversary..
in the nex hour, i was receiving his msg..n..stunned..
1 month passed by so fast n we haven talk to each other since last month of today..
today saw them together again..she came to him upstairs..
i reli wish to fade all this awkward n sad feelings away each time seeing them together
i found out that kah en had many bfs last time but now im not sure she got 1 anot..
he seems like couldnt believe she has a bf after sara n chandan told him
up to him, mayb he was rite she hasnt 1


sometimes i think am i such unvalueable?
why did everyone that i truely love leaves me?
am i not worth to b loved?
did i do wrong anything?
am i not good enuf?
were u all like to cheat on me?
am i such ugly?
or u all wanna take advantage on me?
i need an answer..=(


i feel so sad rite now..
ar zheng dunno why seems like talk lesser to me jor..
last time he liked to chat wif me in msn n aso play with me in school..
now no more..='(
in msn aso he din find me n aso sometimes din reply me..
i reli so sad leh..i miss that time..=(
i counted him as my best fren but now he seems like..distant with me d..
i think...i..got a bit like him..
but i know we wont=D
hes a solo guy solo~ xD
i juz hope to b a closer fren with him..thats all
but..seems like i dun hav this chance..
best frens only mar..will kill u meh==


i suddenly feel so sad..
if last time he din ask for me to b his partner i would had b ar zheng's partner..
i wished to b his partner in prom, really.
dunno why..
mayb i fall for him without me realizing myself at time time already LOL!
probably?xD
i think so...
but that time i knew i couldnt betray that guy so i tried to hold myself
but who knows i was cheated..
he said he is a bad partner but i dont think so n i wished to show him that he is not on that time..
but..stupid el. i hate him so much!!
as much as i hate miss lai n mayb more
but im so hapi that he..was actually willing to b my partner=D
cuz at first he always said "duwan" but in d end in msn he asked me said "the prom, really ur partner ar?" 
hahahahahaha he wished to b my partner too=D xDD
so hapi xD
cuz he rejected d others u know
n i feel so glad he asked me so until now i aso hapi xD
i think if..that el tell me the truth ealier will me n him b together?LOL
i think i had this chance but that stupid guy blocked my chance..
sobs..T.T


im reli so sad leh he seems so distant with me..
he wants to b a lawyer?
reli?LOL xD
sure so many lawyers will die kena stab by him xD
hahahahahaha xD
i think he is quite mature=)
but hes cute too ;) especially when he sleeps =D
so cute>< =D
hes better than that el much more for sure=)
aiyah wat for? frens only mar
not more than that=)
yesterday i dreamed bout him
OMG..got feel somemore aww..~xD
actually bfor i slept i was hoping not to dream bout either one of them (that el n zheng~)
but finally..the present one came out in my dream
so sweet^^ xD
but aiyah~ impossible=)


hope that our best frenship will come back..=(
duwan tsl liao shu shu>< xDD
kidding lar xD
i miss the time he played n laughed at me cuz i couldnt hit his handxD
trust me. i will forget a worst guy like him (el) 
JIA YOU!!
SPM JIA YOU!!xD