i suddenly think of something..
the scene of outside of my house was same as last 2 months geh 22nd..which was 22nd august..
that day we went out to sushi king..
n he sent me back..
n the lamp post shines the surrounding with orange light which gave us warm n romantic feeling..
i stil rmb i was hugging his hand when i reached home..
the same feeling rite now..
the lighting was same as last time..
quiet nite..romantic light from the lamp post..
the light was memorable cuz the lamp post always rosak but that day its good..
n for no reason..i feel like cryin..missing that moment so much...n..missing that guy...
i feel like myself being trapped in our memories..
i couldnt forget a single one..
they are all planted in my heart..
wish to get someone who can diffuse them..
i miss his car...n i miss his smile...
elmy..
I cant believe that we..=)
how r u..?
i feel like im cheating myself..that im no longer missing u n care bout u..
actually i still do..
but i always assure myself that im not..
Im so hapi that i manage to act that i dont care bout him n doest feel his existance n hapi in front of him..
i wont die in front of him!
cant imagine kahen sitting beside him in his kancil like i always did last time..hmm..=)
he..is..unforgetable..in my mind..n aso my heart..
my nex one faster appear la!
i duwanna b a prisoner of my memories anymore!
save me outta here!
this is too deep..n i nid a very looooooong time...
until now aso i din talk a single word to him..
its been 1month 7days we dint talk..n i miss his smile..
but its no longer mine..
i still hate him that he lied to me until the last sentence he told me..
that was horrible n unforgivable..
he was even lied to sara they all..
he did! About genting..
that was not a destiny..but a fake destiny created by himself..
All this time..i know EVERYTHING
from the beginning until d end..
i knew that he always lie to me
but..i chose to believe him eventhough its hard to believe in something that u know its a lie..but i stil chose to trust u..
cuz..i think that trustworthy n honesty r important in a relationship..
so i chose to trust though my sixth sense told me its wrong..
i didnt want him to say that i dun trust him..
who knows..my sixth sense was totally accurate.
so..i gali kubur sendiri lor.
dun u ever think that i was such stupid that i was really trust u..i know everything..
i know when u lied n when ur not..
i wish that time can b reversed..
i wanna go back to prom..
so that i can b his partner..for the whole nite!
i was cheated to b that stupid guy geh partner..
at first i wanna b with him one..
but..stupid guy bagged me so i accepted lo..
sadner..i wanna b with him..TT
if not im sure now hes in love with me ;) xD
so hapi that today we interact more!
n glad that he sleep earlier=D x)
nite=)
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